Closer to Love

I figured it was time for an update.
Right now I am currently finding myself obsessed with Mat Karney's songs- particularly Closer to Love. It pulls on my heart strings. I just love it.

Maybe because I am in love with LOVE.
At the last ACTS retreat I was on the theme had to do with the fact that GOD is love. Therefore, I like to think that being in love with love has a lot to do with being in love with God. And that is not a bad thing at all.

Things are changing all around. Change is life though I guess.
The retreat was a giant step in my own transformation. In becoming more comforable with the decisions I am making. Trusting that things happen for a reason. Praying for the strength to make it through when I wish things were like they were before. In reality I'm coming to a healthier place again. Finding out what makes me happy, who I need in my life to help support me. Finding out who truly will be there.
I'm trying to take one step, one moment at a time. Which is really hard when my mind starts planning my future. Then I start missing out on life now.

People come and go. I hate goodbyes. I wish they didn't have to happen.
I'm terrible at keeping in touch with people, even though I want to so badly. A lot of this has to do with the fear of losing or rejection.


I haven't talked to many college and JVC roomies and friends and aquantiences who I do really like.

One person that I use to feel closest to for the past couple years stopped talking to me for reasons I'm not entirely sure of...

and most recently a great coworker left today.

In other news, I am trying to be healthier in mind, body and spirit.
My goal is to exercise more and eat healthier. To take vitamins. To learn to relax. To spend more time outside (which is hard to do when it keeps raining!)
I'm contemplating going to Haiti in March for an immersion trip.
I'm enjoying reading the Twilight series, even though I wasn't sure about it at first.

I think that's all.
Peace.

Keep faith. Hold onto hope. Love with all you have.
(this is for myself as much as anyone else)