Another month. Can't believe this year is almost half way through.
June and July are gonna be two of my busiest months yet. Good busy though. Dance recital, retreat meetings, retreats, helping with the summer camp at Casserly House, etc.
Those are just some of the events.
Life has been weird lately. I think I've reached a turning point, and I'm beginning to grow some more. With growth though comes growing pains- and boy can they be painful.
I'm not talking about physical growth(though that would be nice if I could grow an inch or two more), but personal growth. I'm learning to navigate the tough waters of my relationships with others. I'm learning, what I've always known- that I really need to be more assertive. I've been too complacent in letting others determine my life. I'm ready to take a stand to determine my own life. I'm indecisive, but it's time to make decisions that are for my own good.
I try so hard to make others happy, that sometimes I forget what I need to do to care for me. Sometimes I depend to much on others, other times I'm afraid to ask for what I need from them. I let others get to me, forgetting I have control of my own reactions. This things have come to my attention, and the more I think about them, the more I feel empowered to do the things that I need to do to make me happy. If others are with me, they are. If they don't like it, frankly (not to sound mean but...) that's too bad.
I love my job. I am learning so much as I teach and counsel. I know I am right where I am suppose to be, job wise. I can't picture myself anywhere else right now. The scary part is thinking that I can't be in this job forever, it's only part time, and eventually I'll need a job that makes slightly more money.
Speaking of job... I should really go get ready for work now.
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